Nothing goes as expected and that’s okay

The hardest part of claiming adulthood is realizing that nothing ever happens as expected:

The job you spent weeks preparing for not calling you back.

The school of your dreams accepts you a week before school starts because you were waitlisted.

The relationship you thought was going well ends because of miscommunication and good ol’ friend-zoning.

At 26, I don’t have all of the answers and I’m content with that. It’s been 13 days since I’ve unplugged from social media and I see things… a lot clearer. I don’t wait for likes or feel bad for not responding to 300 comments for engagement purposes. 

I’m observing a party I’ve always had a ticket to but finally decided not to attend. Once upon a time, I declared I wanted to make “internet money”. Which, in my mind, is the act of converting leads on the internet using social media marketing. Building a community, let alone a following, takes time. It’s a daily reminder to the world that you exist and are worthy of its visibility. But the fight to stay consistent, post relevant things, and remain authentic feels like a hamster wheel with no reward. My desire to be a trailblazer burns bright because I have family, friends, and a community that’s counting on me to do my best. 

I moved from Miami to Jacksonville to Atlanta so far and I’ve got more places to plant my flag. I hope that New York is next but it's possible that too could change. However, until then, I’ll keep writing about growing pains, listening to Soulection, and figuring out what angles I need to shoot for my next reel.